I'm still hanging around!

[Scrapdragon]

Hey guys
I know the forum at NDISB is still having problems so I thought I would pop in here and give you all an update.
I am improving, slowlly but surely. I can walk now with the aid of a stick, but I can't walk far before I have to sit down for a rest. The last few weeks I have been battling extreme fatigue. The surgeon warned me about it but I was still totally unprepared for it. I've been sleeping a good 12 - 16 hours most days which is a pain but then sleep is a good healer, so I#m not complaining. About 4 weeks agao, I went to the ICU for a follow up appt and they showed me the photos of my surgery, gruesome! Then my hair started falling out! My GP says it's due to the stress I have been through and will take months to improve. My hairdresser said the same and gave me strict instructions not to dye it,, great,, since I have also gone completely grey!

Then, even worse than everything else, my poor little furbaby Simba, died in the early hours of Friday morning. He had been poorly Thursday afternoon and I gave him his medicine and by 9.00 pm he was eating and drinking,, but then he took poorly again as I was going to bed so I stayed up so I could give him his medicine again. I think his little heart was just so tired because he had no energy and his heart just stopped beating. I feel so bereft. He was with me for 13 years, from a 5 week old kitten, and he gave me so much love and happiness. I still have Tasha, who is 15 but it breaks my heart to see her walking from room to room, looking for Simba. I honestly can't wait for this year to be over,, it's been one of the worst of my entire life!

I am trying to work on a new kit, but it's a slow process with the amount of sleep I need. I have decided to go and visit my sister and nephews in OZ in October for 2 months. Maybe some cuddles with my nephews will be just what I need to get me back on track. So, although I will carry on designing and keep popping in to say Hi, I don't think I will be up to speed now until the New Year, a new start I hope.

I hope all you guys are happy and well, I think of you all often.
Hugs
B x

[Frani_54]

Oh Aunt B I have not been to NDISB in a while and didn't know you were ill and needed surgery. I'm so sad to hear about it and your troubles, you were such a blessing to me while I was CT over there and I only wish you the best.

I am glad you are doing better and gaining your strength back, don't get too frustrated with the recovery process just take it slow and get your health back. The trip to see your nephew sounds like a great idea , nothing like being surrounded with those little ones to lift your spirits.....

Keep in touch I miss you a lot.

Fran

[Susan - s3js]

Auntie, B! What a tough time you've had of it. I'm happy to hear you are on the mend, but my heart is breaking for you, too. The pain of losing our fur babies is as bad as losing our human family. The grief is all too real. I hope your time with family will be just what the doctor ordered.

I wish I was there so I could put my arms around you for real, but my cyber-hug will have to suffice for now. It comes with all my love!

[Sandersmr]

Auntie B - we are so lucky to have you with us still. Hugs to you for losing your little Simba - one of the hardest things is losing one of our 4-legged friends.

I hope you enjoy your cuddles with your nephews.

And don't try to push yourself too hard - design when you feel like it, but rest when you need to.

[Amy Eileen]

Auntie B, its so good to hear from you. I am happy to hear that you are doing better than you were, even if not great. :( I can truly understand the pain you are going through. When we lost our beloved Shaggy a few years ago after 15yrs together, it was like losing a close friend. Make sure that you take the time to grief for Simba and in time your heart will only smile when you think of him.

Take care of yourself! Rest! Enjoy the time with you family. At the end of the day, our family and friends are what matter the most in this world. They are the best medicine for a broken heart, a broken spirit, and a broken body. I wish you well!

[Scrapdragon]

Oh gosh, I should have known I could count on you guys to set the tears rolling again,, nice tears this time though,, warm, huggy tears from the thought that you are loved.

Frani,, I have been through quite a lot this year,, my gall bladder burst and when they operated to remove it, they nipped my bowel,, I ended up with necritis and in the end they just kept me unconscious and kept taking me back to surgery to cut bits away,, 14 operations in all. When I woke up, my muscles had wasted away and I couldn't walk,,, along with a host of other problems which are best left undescribed. But I am on the mend although full recovery, to whatever level, will take up to 2 years.

Thank you for all your kind words, I do miss everyone, very much. But I simply have such a short concentration span right now that I can't be bothered with hours on the PC.
Hugs
B x

[Debb Cozzi]

Oh B, I'm just heartsick at all of the struggles you have had to face. It is hard enough to try recovering your health but then adding grief on top of it all....my goodness!! I have been praying for your physical health from the very beginning of your ordeal but your post reminds me that equally important are the prayers I will be saying for your emotional well being. I will be praying that you will be comforted by those you love and that each day the challenges will be diminished and the moments of ease and contentment will grow.

Your courage and perseverance in all that you have been called to overcome are an inspiration to many. Please know that you are thought of and cared for! ((((Hugs))))

[Frani_54]

Aunt B you know we love you, always. It breaks my heart to hear you have gone through so much this last year and my prayers are with you. Praying for a full recovery and peace of mind.

If you need a shoulder to cry on or just need to talk you know we are here for you....

Hugs
Fran